" What'll happen next?"

- It's running around in my mind.

Hello confusion.

There's a new subject in my life that's actually been there for a while now without me noticing. I have no idea what to do. No idea what to say or how to act.
But I think I've decided to let things be the way they were. For now at least.

I'm not sure if I want anything to happen. Maybe that's what I want.. I don't know. But just for now I'll leave it.

I'm really confused.

Soon back from Spain!

¡HOLA! Guess what! Im going home to Sweden tomorrow!

Ive been at a holiday in Mallorca, Spain, since last saturday. At the beginning of the week I really didnt feel like being here. It was such a bad timing and all I really wanted to do was go home to all my friends. One friend in particular. BUT I decided to take everyday as they came to make the week feel shorter. I cant really believe that Im already going home! It feels weird.
It´ll probably be a good thing though. Im starting to feel a little dizzy from all the sunlight and its SOOO warm down here x_x

I havent got much to tell you for now though.. Just that the beach is wonderful and the pool is chill.. MY MOM EVEN BATHED THERE MORE THAN I DID! O: Ive like.. bathed twice this week xD But she! She´s bathed a HUNDRED times it seems O_O Im so surprised, since she HATES to bathe O: Thats a shock.

WELL I HAVE TO GO NOW. ¡ADIOS!

Twice the trouble

I'm sorry if I've been confusing you these last few days. My mood has been up and down this week and I haven't really felt any good. First I would be happy and my smile would be grater than anything and the next second my world would be completly broken. Even though I've been sad before, I've NEVER felt this down. I was really heart broken and shocked and I had no idea where to turn to.
What gets to me the most is not problems with love or things like that. Those things are tiny matters in comparison to what truly matters. Friendship and trust.
Friendship and trust are the two things I value more than anything else. What I'm trying to tell you guys is that you should trust each other and think twice before you do something that might hurt a friend. No matter what it's about. Think twice!
I'm also trying to tell you to be honest with each other! If you're feeling hurt by someone, then tell that person what's the matter rather than beating around the bush and trying to avoid that person! That just leads to missunderstanding and more sad feelings.
I talked to the person yesterday and we're all good now. Talking about it is really the best way to solve things. You can't ignore everything that happens. Sometimes you have to step down from your dream world and say "No!". It's important.


I'm going to Mallorca tomorrow! It's an island near Spain. I'm going there with my parents, my younger brother and some people from dads part of the family! It'll be good to get away from Sweden for a while. It feels like I need it.

Let me see your pretty smiles now! :D

Confused head

A sad goldfish expression is not what I wanna put on my face right now. I wan't to show you all a big smile. It's fragile and easily gone, but it's there. Somewhere.

It's been interrupted for a while now though. When I woke up it was gone. I went to school and it appeared again. Came home and once again it wouldn't show. At the same time things are getting better, it's getting worse. The deeper I go, the harder it'll be to get to the surface. I'm afraid I might drown.



Yesterday was fun!! I haven't had that much fun for a while now and I really enjoyed the company I had. We laughed and talked about everything. So much in common and still so different. It's kinda weird. The memory makes me laugh.




For some strange reason I fell asleep crying yesterday though.

-Why?
Well that's something for me to know and for you to not.

HELLO MR DOOM

Today's the day of doom. Or maybe the opposite? Not quite sure yet.. we'll just have to wait and see.

What surprises me the most is that I'm not even nervous. Should I be? - Probably.
I NEVER expected this day to come. I never even thought about it, not once. It's funny how things turn out just after you've decided to let someone go. That they'll actually come around and try to get your attention. It's like a friend said; "Cats go to allergic people because they're trying to avoid them". Or something like that.
I'll just wait and see. Maybe I'm not the allergic person. Maybe it's not a big deal.

Probably isn't.

I am SOOOOO confused right now. I don't know where to go. I feel like screaming. I feel like laughing and it's IMPOSSIBLE to sit still.

WHAT DO I DO?